Although I don’t do reversals, I do believe that each of the cards has a shadow side. When I drew the Son of Pentacles this morning I knew immediately that this was the aspect of the card that was trying to grab my attention.
I feel that recently I have become firmly entrenched in a rut of my own making. This is exacerbated by yet another bout of depression which is sapping my energy and vitality and ensuring that I don’t put a foot out of the door unless I really have to, either to go to work or keep an appointment. It feels as if my world has contracted to such a point that it now only includes me and four walls. I find that I don’t want to see or interact with people and that all my get up and go, to quote the cliche, has got up and gone.
I have no enthusiasm or passion for my former loves and projects. It feels as if my exasperated friends have given up on me.
I can relate to the lonely looking figure of the deer on this card as he stares blindly ahead, unable to perceive or participate in the fun and enjoyment that others are delighting in. He looks as if he is locked in his own little world, with no key to free himself from the self imposed isolation and stagnation. He has become so risk averse that life has descended into a monotonous and dull tedium that stretches ahead infinitum. How does he break free?
This mornings card was The Hermit. I must admit that it felt very appropriate for today. Do you ever have those kind of days where you just want to withdraw from the world and retreat into your shell? Today was one of those days for me. I felt as if I didn’t want to talk to or engage with anyone. I wished everyone would just go away and leave me alone so that I could think and contemplate in peace. I felt as if I had a lot to meditate on and didn’t relish being constantly interrupted. I am trying a new format for my daily card which seems to be working well for me and yielding some interesting results. I am trying to sum up the card in just one word…..the first word that intuitively comes to me when I turn the card over. Then I am choosing one action to accomplish by the end of the day in connection to the card.
Yesterday the card I pulled was the Three of Swords and the first meaning that came to me was “betrayal”. After musing on this for a time I realised that it referred to all the ways I betray myself by not being true to me. When I started to contemplate this thorny issue I realised that this subject matter was way too vast for just one days consideration. In some ways I was glad to draw The Hermit today as it meant I could further explore this issue.
It was depressing to recognise all the ways I continually ignore my own truth, usually because I want to spare someone else’s feelings or avoid hurting them. Unfortunately I don’t appear to have the same concerns about hurting myself…..time after time after time.
“To thine own self be true” is one of my favourite quotes. Why do I find it almost impossible to put it into practice?
It seems that this card is a familiar friend at the moment as it has made an appearance several times recently.
Today, I feel that it is about nostalgia and tapping into the magic and richness of the past. Recently I have become somewhat out of touch with the pursuits and pastimes which used to bring me joy.
So I thought I would delve into the past and reconnect with the things I used to love as a child and teenager. Maybe I can bring some of these fun things into my present day reality? I have decided that I am going to commit to an “actual action” each day prompted by the card I draw. Hopefully this will precipitate real change in my life as opposed to just a nice intellectual idea which is never acted upon!
So, what did I love as a kid? In no particular order…….
Dancing; make believe; writing; music; nature; dressing up; makeup; playing outside; fairies; magic; colour; photography; tarot; astrology; cooking; reading; sunshine; roller skating; daydreaming; planning things; picnics; parties; socialising; talking; holidays; Christmas; camping; bonfires; beaches!
It’s not an exhaustive list, but I think there’s a few things on there which I can immediately put into practice……starting NOW!
The card I have picked today is The Ace of Swords. This is the card of sudden flashes of insight and clarity. Maybe you have been wrestling with a thorny issue or problem for some time, and then suddenly, like a bolt from the blue the answer is presented to you in a wholly formed flash of inspiration. You wonder why this perfect solution had never occurred to you before…..but here it is, flawless in it’s creative simplicity!
If you get a sudden, lightening bolt of inspiration today be sure to make a note of it as it could be just the solution you’ve been searching for!
Something strange happened this morning. I shuffled my Wild Unknown deck and chose a card for the daily draw. Just before I turned the card over, an image flashed into my mind and I thought to myself “wouldn’t it be strange if the image on the card was the one I’d just thought of?” Low and behold, I flipped the card over and it was in fact the Five of Swords….the card that had emblazoned itself across my brain milliseconds earlier! This makes me think that the message of this card has something important to impress on me today. So, what is the interpretation of this card?
Because the swords are all about the mind, the thoughts and communication, this card shows where our thinking might be getting us into trouble. This card seems to describe a situation where we are fighting a futile battle which will end up “biting us on the bum”. The phrase “is it better to be right or happy?” springs to mind, as I see this as one of those situations where neither party will back down as it is more important to their individual egos to prove something rather than preserve the harmony in the relationship. Sometimes it is more important to pick your battles and question whether it is really worth the aggro caused, just to prove a point. Sometimes it is better to just let things go; when you look back in a few years time will this conflict really be important, or will you have simply “cut off your nose to spite your face” and created more problems for yourself?
This card can also relate to an internal conflict or battle. Sometimes our own thoughts can be turned against us, with a stream of negative self talk which constantly attacks and berates us for our perceived mistakes and shortcomings. We can often be far more vitriolic towards ourselves than anyone else would ever be. This shows the self destructive aspect of this card which can cause just as much damage as any external conflict with another person. Consider whether you are sabotaging your own happiness and peace of mind by your own negative thinking?
I love this depiction of the Seven of Swords from The Wild Unknown deck, showing a very shifty and devious looking fox concealing one of the swords beneath his curled up body.
When this card appears, be careful who you trust, as someone may be trying to “pull the wool over your eyes” regarding something. It could indicate a betrayal or deception that has yet to come to light.
Equally, it could refer to something underhand or dishonest that you are contemplating getting involved with. Think carefully, as sometimes although it may seem like the easier option, the truth is usually the best policy in the long run.
In the words of Walter Scott…..
“Oh, what a tangled web we weave…when first we practice to deceive.”
Equally, this card could also be about something that we are at pains to keep from ourselves. Sometimes we are all guilty of burying our heads in the sand, rather than facing up to the unpalatable truth of a situation, emotion or action that we would prefer to blank out and ignore.
Ok, so today I have drawn The Mother of Wands from The Wild Unknown deck for my daily card.
The “Mothers” in the tarot deck are all about the qualities of nurturing and protection and how we do this for others and for ourselves.
The Mother of Wands is passionate, vibrant, charismatic and creative. She is the type of mother who manages to maintain a warm and welcoming environment for her family and friends, whilst also finding the time to pursue her own projects and endeavours in the outside world. This is the woman who is able to “do it all” and often we marvel at what she is able to achieve in the same twenty four hours that we are all apportioned. I think of someone like Nigella Lawson, the ultimate “domestic goddess”, who also manages to juggle multiple business projects alongside family life.
As a mother she is likely to be fiercely protective of her family, defending them to the death and supporting them through thick and thin.
When this card comes up it is likely to signify the querent, or someone with these qualities and attributes who is already, or soon to appear in the querents reality.
Alternatively, it can also be a call to embody some of the qualities of The Mother of Wands in your own life. I think this was certainly the case for me today as I contemplate whether I have the courage and conviction to move forward with plans and projects. I feel that a large dollop of confidence, passion, enthusiasm and self belief would certainly not go amiss!
Time to take a pause and re-evaluate. Sometimes it’s good to look at things from a completely different perspective. This is how some of our greatest breakthroughs in thinking come about.