This mornings card was The Hermit. I must admit that it felt very appropriate for today. Do you ever have those kind of days where you just want to withdraw from the world and retreat into your shell? Today was one of those days for me. I felt as if I didn’t want to talk to or engage with anyone. I wished everyone would just go away and leave me alone so that I could think and contemplate in peace. I felt as if I had a lot to meditate on and didn’t relish being constantly interrupted. I am trying a new format for my daily card which seems to be working well for me and yielding some interesting results. I am trying to sum up the card in just one word…..the first word that intuitively comes to me when I turn the card over. Then I am choosing one action to accomplish by the end of the day in connection to the card.
Yesterday the card I pulled was the Three of Swords and the first meaning that came to me was “betrayal”. After musing on this for a time I realised that it referred to all the ways I betray myself by not being true to me. When I started to contemplate this thorny issue I realised that this subject matter was way too vast for just one days consideration. In some ways I was glad to draw The Hermit today as it meant I could further explore this issue.
It was depressing to recognise all the ways I continually ignore my own truth, usually because I want to spare someone else’s feelings or avoid hurting them. Unfortunately I don’t appear to have the same concerns about hurting myself…..time after time after time.
“To thine own self be true” is one of my favourite quotes. Why do I find it almost impossible to put it into practice?